Wednesday, December 30, 2009-
10:30 PM
I can't catch up with you
As you drift further away-I'm starting to miss school, my friends, my teammates, everything except exams. I would rather go to school than work seriously. Keep doing the same thing repeatedly, doesn't excites me. At least in school, we get to learn new things. To people who are studying, enjoy every moment because once you start working, it won't be as exciting as what you do in school. Its like just another mundane life. Currently, I've been watching "下一站幸福"-miss you miss you, alien daddy and "海派甜心"-chobulajixianggutou. HAHA. It is addictive. But Taiwan is showing too slowly already, how I wish everything can be uploaded once and for all. I think Vaness Wu looks like JiaXin! Their features and the way they talked. Need to keep looking forward to the next episode, which is another weekend. DUHH! Haven't been keeping in touch with alot of people after school ended. Now as I look back at how naive we were, believing that we will still keep in contact till we grow old. All the empty talks. I haven't see my friends since the last day of A's? I guess the next time I'll see them is when we're getting results back. Looking back, Chin Wan Ling's life isn't that interesting after all. After primary school, I'm left with one friend, Miracle. After secondary school, I'm left with more than one friends Liting, Frederick, XingHui and the whole Kamakazi Players. After JC, I'm left with three friends, Mag Ho, TJF and Alvana Choo. Many things happened recently, people whom I've respected with all my heart starts to disappoint me. Can't even spell my name correctly. You sounded like you've made such a big sacrifice for us, but in the end did you ever question yourself if that is what we really want? Or perhaps that is what you yourself want. Times and times again we forgive you but all of us have our own limit. One day it will turn into hatred and I personally wish that day won't come. You said one year, so one year later there is nothing between you and us? You rather give in to your own happiness(or rather not, start of misery) than to consider how people around you feel. Oh right, you're the one who is always right and no matter how hard we tried, we're always wrong. If we really mean so much to you then why didn't you spare a thought for us before doing it. Because in the first place, you only cared about yourself, not us. We're just tools for you to make yourself proud, so that you can show off us to people around you. I don't know how to trust you anymore. Started off this year enthusiatically, looking forward to end of A's. Ending this year, hoping 2010 will never come. All we have was one year more.
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Show me how to love like you have loved me
Should have loved while it lasted
