Monday, January 11, 2010-
10:49 PM
Someone once told me, always regret the things you did do, not things you didn't do. Felt like a total idiot, uncaring, foolish, selfish, living in my own world kind of lousy sister. If my dad didn't even told me what happen, I wouldn't even know what in the world is happening to people living under the same roof with me. What if. What if I knew what had happen. What if I tried to stop him. What if it never occur to him to do that. What if. Oxymoron. I really hope whatever happened to him won't affect his final year. I don't think he knows how painful people around him are watching him suffering in silence. I really doubt the meaning of family cause I don't see the bond at all. I don't know what to do as a sister, I wished someone would tell me what to do. Sometimes, I really hate myself for being so useless, really useless zzz.
Should have loved while it lasted