Thursday, April 22, 2010-
9:31 PM
There's many things I wanted to rant out. However, some things are better left unsaid. I really got so pissed with myself these days. After yesterday's interview for architecture, dad said something about me which was totally right. He said, whatever things I do, I don't do it seriously so in the end, I'm giving my opportunities away to someone else who puts in more effort. Nevertheless, on the way home, I was regretting why didn't I initiate the conversation. Maybe I could warm the seat a little longer instead of leaving the room, less than five minutes of interview. I really really really wanted that course so badly but well, as usual, I just let it slipped by. Perhaps I didn't really want it that badly because my actions doesn't reflect it.
YingFu, it doesn't help. I can't put my frustrations in words. If everything can be put in words and expressed, I guess I would feel better. I'm in the trough of my life. Tomorrow marks one year after you came and disrupted my happy and peaceful life. Well, we can't screw life because no matter how hard we tried to screw it, its still the same.
All eyes on God
Should have loved while it lasted
